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"May I never boast except in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ, through which the world has been crucified to me, and I to the world."

Galatians 6:14

This week was certainly not what I expected it to be and was filled with disappointment, frustration, and a terrible attitude. I was also very tired and felt as if the sin I was struggling with was simply swept under the carpet until I could deal with it later. One question Loren asked us at church was, "What are you boasting in?" In other words, what is that one thing (or several things) that I have just been clinging to and hoping desperately that it would satisfy me and make me happy?

After thinking about it I knew that all week I had been boasting in the things of this world, like wanting to drive a nice car, live on campus (which also fell through) or looking a certain way. I also grew to be dependent on other people and things rather than the Lord. It is shameful to say that I chose to put so many things before the Lord this week and that in turn made me miserable. It's like I knew what I was doing wrong and I kept doing it which in the end comes back to bite you in the butt.

However, God has shown me his grace and compassion. He has not given me what I deserve and I'm so thankful for that and that there is absolutally nothing I can do to gain God's favor or make up for my sins.

On another note, today is Freshmen orientation which means that I don't have to go to work!I'm excited about meeting new people and I realize that it is so much easier to make friends in college than it is in high school! Everyone is just so kicked back and pretty dorky like myself. Jacob is also (lordwilling) going to come pick me up so we can spend some extra time together that we normally wouldn't have.

"If I find in myself a desire which nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world."

C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity