Another Reason, Another Season

God is good and he has so much to teach me. Even in the midst of frustration I have to trust that he is holding me and has not forgotten me. Today is just one of those days...I'm not exactly sure what God is trying to teach me but I can only rely on Him to get me through it. So here I venture into another season of testing and of discipline and I am far from knowing why.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

Although this is a verse that I have heard many times, it really sinks in and is comforting to know that God does know the plans he has for us. While we run around like chickens with our heads cut off, God is up there on his throne and has total control.

Hot Soup

So I apologize to whoever ends up reading my blogs because it seems that the only times I actually log in is to vent. So here I am, frustrated at the disappointments in life. Things just don't seem to go the way they are supposed too, such as parents providing for their children or actually taking responsibility and doing something about their situation. Things have changed so much since I graduated--so many responsibilities have just been dumped in my lap like hot soup...and here I am, pulling out all of my crazy analogies. So, I take comfort in the fact that God knows what we're going through-he knows and I don't blame him for our trouble because it is definitely not his fault. Why do people blame God for our silly decisions? He's here to comfort us and help us to get out of the hole that we have fallen into. Oh God, only you can bring relief to such a desperate situation.

Pumpkins

I feel like carving pumpkins and going to a corn maze. I miss Jacob and I am ready for him to come home. So God is pretty much amazing and I'm so amazed at his provision. Honestly, I don't have much to write these days and I can't complain much... :)

Done For Today

So I am super excited because I am done with work for today! I normally would call Jacob right about now but then I realized that:
1) I forgot my phone at home
2) Jacob is not in town
Well, praise the Lord, things went well today and God has been really good! I was able to talk to Jacob this morning and it sounds like he's having a lot of fun. Tonight I will probably go to college group and I'm pretty excited about that too.

And He's Off!

So Jacob is off to Indianapolis today. He called and left me a voicemail letting me know that they were about to board the plane and that if I called him around five he should be in Atlanta by then. It hasn't even been a full 24 hours and I already miss him! Next Monday seems a long time a way...pray for safe travels please!

Blah Blah Blah!

So after two days of frustration, I finally buckled down early this morning and read my Bible. I'm not sure if you have felt the way I have, just extremely apathetic and sluggish. I went to bed last night with a sense of despair-what was wrong with me??? After tossing and turning all night I finally woke up early and talked to the Lord-I confessed to him my apathy, laziness, and my struggles (as if he didn't already know!) and then took comfort in his word. At a time when I felt like I really traded in God's glory for filthy rags, all I wanted to read about what His forgiveness and love to me. I read out of Romans 8:28 and on--how nothing can separate us from God's love, absolutally nothing. The entire time that I felt distant from the Lord, he was right there with me. It's so easy to choke over the struggles of this world and to throw your hands up and give up. But God is greater than that, and I'm so thankful. So as for now I am trying (with God's strength) to climb out of this hole of apathy that I have somehow dug and have fallen into. I'm struggling with sin, and of course failing, but at the same time I am thankful for God's grace and mercy in my life.
So Jacob is leaving for Indianapolis on Wednesday and I am really going to miss him. Eventhough I am proud of him, it still stinks when he has to leave. On a brighter note, one of my really good friends from high school text me and we are going to try to meet up for dinner tomorrow night-I'm so excited! She has such an amazing heart for the Lord and i'm so thankful. I really miss some of the girls I went to high school with--some of them moved away, which is a bummer. On a random note, God is doing cool things, and today is the last day that I have to do my service project for JCC! Woohoo! As much as I like to serve, i really haven't enjoyed this service project mostly because I felt forced into it by FPU. I have decided that I want to start getting involved at the Well. I want to serve and get closer to the Lord and start going to Bible Study! I need fellowship badly-that's something I've been lacking in.Well, tata for now!

A Gassy Adventure

So after much deliberation and a change in my mood, I decided to change my blog template back to the happy pocka dots because that's how I'm feeling today. I suppose over the course of my time my templates will change here and there, depending on my mood. So, today is Monday, often the dreaded first day of the week. I have about 15 minutes till my next class and instead of choosing to study I decided to sit down and write a blog. So, some exciting events for this week:
The Big Fresno Fair! Yes, it's finally here. Don't forget to check out the farting cow, it's a new dairy exhibit that I read about in the newspaper. I am totally excited-I can't wait to see all of the animals and the cute bunnies! The thing I love most about the fair is that it's usually around the time when the weather begins to cool off. So, in other words, we have 2 days for the weather to cool down so all of Fresno can enjoy the fair.
So this morning I went to go pump gas at 7/11 and it was one of the most frustrating experiences I have had in my history of fueling. So, here are the steps to my gassy adventure:

1) Swipe card; try pumping gas-no go :(
2) Next step: Lock car, go inside 7/11, swipe card, go back outside, unlock car, try pumping gas-again no go.
3) and 4) Repeat of step 2.
5) Finally, the clerk had to come out and help me pump the gas and we realized after practically 5 tries that something was wrong with the nozzle, not me!

I ended up moving over to the next gas tank and using that one. Thankfully, no one was in line to pump gas behind me. The downside was that it took my like 20 minutes to get fuel, which I'm pretty sure is some time of world record. The great part is now I feel like an expert and i'm pretty sure I won't feel nervous the next time I need to obtain gasoline for my vehicle.

Long live the farting cow!